Thursday, April 10, 2008

Back to Square One

So after more than a week, not getting any replies from VADS about my job application, i called them up a while ago. Miss Yong told me, the client (the fierce dude) thinks that im too soft and lack of confidence.

"My client thinks you too soft, and lack of confidence"

Me-lvin doh
One afternoon at One Utama

I went to One Utama to watch movie (See next post; below), it's my first time ever watching movie at 1 Utama, after reading up Lee Xiang's post. After buying our tickets, we went for lunch, because the movie starts at 4:30, when it was 2:40pm at that time, so kebetulan that Old Town Kopitiam, is there. Miss those moments hang out with the guys, and talk like girlsdry.

So while i was at there, the were quite some people there. I like the place's serenity, calmness and the atmosphere. I ordered Tom Yam Mee Hoon, and Spirulina, very hungry man, didn't eat my breakfast and lunch yet. So while i was eating, i heard quite some noise, from the table opposite. At first, it look like some Chinese college students. So i didn't really cared much. Then they beginning making much more noise, again and again. I hang out with Chinese people all week, and i can safely say, whatever language they are talking, ain't Chinese man, its some Korean, Japanese or Shanghai. They kept on making more and more noise with their stupid language!

Their appearance looks quite funny, one of them, not sure whethear it's a girl or guy, who is short, very short, with his/her tempurung hair style, which laughs much more than Joker . He/she stands up each time, when needs to laugh. Another had this lala looks, 100 % looks like Chinese, actually he looks like someone i know off, spiky hair, with the thick frame glasses like the ah bengs wear ones, and there's another one, i cant really remember how she/he looked like. Then there was this girl, who her eyes, so sepet, looked like the Rapid KL Bus Headlamp. I got very annoyed, i wanted to go over there, and give them a "piece" of respecting people. Then that girl with her Rapid KL Bus Headlamps Eyes, looked at me, i just did one thing. I put my finger, in front of my mouth (you know the sign where parents do to their children, to ask them to keep quiet). She looked and shakes her head like those small dolls with big shaking heads, on their car's dashboard, and told to her friends.

When it's time to pay, they went to the cashier, and told him "1. . . 3 . . . 1 . . . 3" to tell him, its RM13. But he don't understand it, as he was a Bangladeshi doh. Then they left. Later i walked around 1 Utama, nothing much to buy. Not only the prices were expensive, but those cool clothing's weren't my size. Went to Tower Records, to check out albums, but as usual i don't buy them. I really amazed to see how such strong building it was, you know to hold the whole shopping complex together. This like this amazes me a lot.

Me-lvin^_~
27 Dresses

Yesterday, went to 1 Utama to see this movie. Well, i didn't suggest this movie, my friend did. I just followed on. I had my own agendas, i wanted to watch definitely, maybe, but it's coming on today. By the way, Ironman is coming out on 30th of April, still long waylah.

This story is about a woman, whose name is Jane, who had become bridesmaid for 27 times. She's so interested in weddings or marriages since she was small kid. Then when she was doing her job as bridesmaid for 2 wedding at the same time, she met up with Kevin Doyle.

Yea, this is all I'll share at this moment, i don't want to burst up the whole story. You can watch the trailer below or you can go to the, official website not only you can watch the trailer, but create you own dress.



Me-lvin^_~

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

A part of Melvin - Part 2

This is the continuation of the first part. This time, i will show you which shaver i use.

I use the Gillette M3 Power (Mach 3)

Such a cool packaging, right?

This is how the shaver looks like

I've been using this shaver for more than 10 months or more. Any BMW fan would know why, i choose to buy this shave!

The real M3!!!

Another reason why i bought this shaver, because of the word "Nitro"! Hehehe. It cost bomb, for the price of RM40 plus. To use this shaver, press on the green krypton looking colour button, and it will activate the M3Power (the motor). You will feel vibration, and then proceed to shave. It's quite stylish, sophisticated and classy.

The downside of this product, is that it's expensive, very expensive. When i bought it, i didn't check out the price for the new blades, so after when i wanted to change the blades, i went to check out, the price for the new blades is RM30 plus. Despite with the cool motor runs, while i shave, i don't feel anything, nor it helps reduce itch after shave. The shaving foam for this product, is also available, in green colour which match with the "nitro" theme with quite an expensive price too.

From the first day i use this shaver, till now, it runs on the SAME Duracell battery.

My advice is, if you have the money, and would look for some cool looking shaver, this would be it. But do bare in mind, that the new set of blades are very costly.

Comparison between, the M3Power, Mach3Turbo and the original Mach3

Me-lvin^_~

NOTE: Pictures were taken from the Google, and Gillette's website

Sunday, April 06, 2008

"Even heros have the right to bleed" - Superman, Five For fighting

And He did bleed for us.

Me-lvin

Saturday, April 05, 2008

It struck me!

Yesterday, i went for SF again, to listen to what is being thought. The topic yesterday, was studies. After listening to 2 (of many) successful peoples in my church, i really thought to myself, i really have wasted my time in school. I could just become like that, and probably end up in University, by now.

During primary school days, i was one of the best students there, seriously. During Standard 3, i got number 3 in the whole school for PTS exam. I still remember the moments, Khairul Fazrin (1) and Lim Jeng Yi (2) were in front of me, we're suppose to go up the stage, and get our certificates, and presents i think (books). I was so active in English quiz, story telling or anything got to do with those days, i ALWAYS, i repeat ALWAYS get number 1, and i ALWAYS win, that shows how bright i am, hahahaha. My academic life went well, till it was Standard 6. During Standard 6 time, i mixed with the wrong groups, when the people was studying, i was playing bicycle at the bicycle parking, which is next to my classroom (ground floor). Without studying, i got myself 2As, 1B, and 2Cs. I think i would have done better, if i actually studied.

Secondary school times, i was a nerd. I end up in the 4th class out of 11 class in Form 1. Which is not fair, as i have friend who got 5Bs in UPSR, and why do i end up in the 4th class, when i for 2As, 1B and 2Cs. Everything went ok, till i started to lazy. Not doing my homework, and not bringing books to school. By the time Form 3, i started to spike up my hair, lowering down my pants, and chillin' out at class. While my friends were revising, i was beside them making jokes about them. I still remember, i went to the library with a friend, and make fun of him. When the results came out, it did really shocked me a lot. Due to my stupidity, arrogance, and know-it-all attitude, i failed. It was really a big slap!

Form 4, i was changed school, to a school nearby my home, but i wasn't happy there. As all of my friends, were in the old school. So i tried to just live at this school. I applied for Science Stream, despite i failed in maths and science. The teachers don't give me, but they asked me to study hard, for the first exam, and then they would change me to Science Stream. I did study, like after so many years of not studying, and wallah! I did it, so i enter inside the Science class. But i started to show laziness back. I changed school back to my old one, which is far away from my place, but i like it there. I enter inside accounting class, due to there's no place in Science Stream. So i enter, and became lazy there, till Form 5. 3 weeks before SPM, i started to do something, i regret all this while i wasted so much time not studying. I sacrificed my tv time, computer game time (no Internet at that time), food time, social time, and went to my room and studied.

At this time i was already in SAGC, and thanks to Beans and Andrew (or was it Isaac), they print out this prayer item, for students. It's taken from Psalm 23, which they remixed it themselves. I kept it in my pencil bag, each time before and after exam i would read it, and ask God for help. Just as exam finish, i'll walk all by myself to any food stall, and eat and then back to table and studying back. Thank God i got 1 A1, 2 B3, 3 C6, 2 E8. Surprisingly, subjects like Maths i got an E for it, because i' so bad in maths.

What I'm trying to say here is that, most of the times, we tend to become lazy. Just look at how i was transformed due to laziness, environment, and attitude problem. If you're still studying in school, or college, please think my story as a testimony from a person who did took his studies seriously, and take this time to change yourself, for your own good.

Me-lvin^_~

Friday, April 04, 2008

And my desktop wallpaper for the whole month of April is . . .

Since i can't own one of it in real life, i might as well own it in the computer.whistle

Me-lvin^_~
A part of Melvin - Part 1

Beans asked me to blog about Tancho, a hair gel which i'm using. Im going to do so, but i'll not going blog about Tancho only, but also other hair products i use, as well.

PLEASE FORGIVE THE PICTURE QUALITY, AS IM USING A LOUSY CAMERA PHONE!

1.) Tancho.


I known this product since primary school days. My friend's been using it. They even have a funny, but rather racist name for tancho, but i wont tell what's the name. Tancho is made out of vegetable content, so it's halal, i presume? Why tancho? Tancho is the most stickest, strongest, and most badest hair gel ever made. Though this product, dont have big publicity as branded stuffs, as Brylcreem, but this gel rocks man! The downside of this product, is that it's too sticky, so when you spike or do up your hair, using your fingers, just get ready soap beside you, and it's not easy to come off, despite washing 2 times with shampoo.

2.)L'OREAL Studio Indestructible Gel


Yeap, this gel is the branded one, im using. It pretty expensive, priced at RM18.00 or higher. I love this gel because of the smell. This gel is said to be indestrutible and has this advance technology, "Hair- Memorizing Effect" which can "bounce" back your hair back to its normal style, if it's been disturbed by helmet, shirt or when someone disturbs your hair. Despite L'OREAL claims that this gel is like Indestructible, many times, it doesnt really do back my hair. But you can try it out.

3). GATSBY SUPER HARD GEL WATER

If you guys notice, most of my gels i use, are mainly in the "hard" category. It's because of the hair style i do all the time, spick hair style, and this is why this gel is one of the best ones i've been using till now. This gel is hard (but not super hard), which is better than Tancho in a way, as you can wash of the remains of the gel sticking on your hand. It also have this nice smell, but beware, dont smell it from the bottle, or smelling it on your hand, the smell is too strong. Another downfall of this product is, that since it's water base, whenever rain or water touches your head, all the gel will drain down towards your face, and eyes, so BEWARE!

4.) GATSBY - Treatment Hair Cream (Normal)

Till this day, i dont know what's the use of this product. But i'm using it as how a person would use Brylcreem. It's almost the same as Brylcreem, which is thick and white as snow. I really love the smell of this hair cream. It has the most sweetest citrus smell. It's good if you want to put it on top, of your child's head.

5.) Clear For Men (Active)

This is the shampoo i use on my hair. I've been using so many shampoos over the years. This one caters my needs, as it reduces head itch, hair fall, dandruff free, and the most cooling sensation after you washed it away from your head.

There you go Beans, and to the rest of you people out there, this are some of the hair products i use, to create the spike hair i have in my picture in most of the photos in this blog, but do realise that different hair creates different styles, and results as well.

Me-lvin^_~
Tech
Why oh why, do people wants to get themself Macbook Airyawn. I've been seeing the hype of Macbook Air, in blogs, in MSN, papers, tech magazine, and many other media. I didn't know what' so special of this Macbook Air, till i heard of the advertisement at FlyFM. The advertisment, was telling how good the notebook is, and the title "World's Thinnest Notebook".
If it's that thin, wont it break easily, or scratch easily like Isaac's iPhonewacko?(There comes my pessimistic attitude, again)

On the other handcheeky, i found something else, attracts me currentlydrool. The new Casio Ex-F1, the camera which can shot up to 60 frame still image per SECOND!!!drool. The camera features Full High-Definition movie recording capability, so you can record some sweet moments, and then burn it. It's so cooldrool!
I don't know at the moment how much is the price, but hope it will be cheap, cheap pleasedrool!

I don't want to elaborate more as, i don't want to turn this blog into a tech blogwhistle (ekchehlee, i don't know anything about this camera, except for it's 60 shots per second)
Have i done the right thing?

Today is 4th of April, the last day for me to register myself, to retake my STPM. I've not done anything yet, i'm not going to register. Am i doing the right thing? God help me to do what You want me to do.

"Show me You, in everything
Show me You in everything"

- I'll see You - Pax217

Me-lvin

Thursday, April 03, 2008

This is a story of guy

EDITTED!!!

OKlah, since my cbox is so hyped up about this person who goes by the name of Beans, and some of you might or might not recognize him. So this is a post for the man.

A little info about Beans, his real name is Jeremy Lue Jun Yi, he's born on 11 of August 1986. He's from a family of 5. He has a sister, and two brothers. He completed his SPM with flying colours, of total 8A1s, and 2A2s. He wanted to further his studies in biology. He went to Form 6 for a short brief of time, but he got an offer from a polytechnic in Changlun, Kedah. After done his studies over there, he came back to Shah Alam, joining in University Malaya, P.J, in Science course. Currently he's still studying there, in his final year. His course is expected to finish by the middle of the month, or ending of the yearnod.

This is himdrool:-

Yes, he does looks like an Apek!

How did i knew him?

I came to SAGC (my church) during 2004. I heard his name being mention many times, but i never met his before as he was at Kedah at that time. At one time i was taking bass lessons from Wilson. Wilson asked me to learn from Jun Yi, because he was quite busy and he teaches Jun Yi before me as well. So i remember the first time, i went to Jun Yi, to ask him to teach me. I still remember the conversation (roughly). It was on the first floor of the stage, near kitchen area.

Me: Hello are you Jun Yi
Jun Yi: Yes
Me: Wilson ask me to learn bass from you, can you teach me. He said he thought you bass.
Jun Yi: Which part you want me to teach you?
Me: I don't knowlah, i forgotten because long time no class.
Jun Yi: You go ask him which part i must teach you

So i thought to myself, "What kinda stuck up person is thisisk. Wilson thought him, right? Not he learnt himself". So over the years, as i hang out with Darren more, i accidentally hang out with Jun Yi also, as Jun Yi is one of Darren's best friend. So over the years, i got to know Jun Yi more and more. Im quite surprise to learn many of his stories during school time, during church time, when i was not in church. One fine day, he came to church with his head bald. My brother saw it, and call him alien, because of his shape, and also call his head beans. So from that day onwards, i started to call him Beans. But you see, in most English movies, the character who uses the word Beans, is actually quite awfully good lookingcheeky, so its a good name.

Sports
Other than his good academic results, he's good in sports toostrong. He's very passionate in football, futsal, captain ball, tennis, squash, bowling, and other unknown sports. He shows good characteristics while in game, but often ignoring cheers from his fans. He supports Liverpool F.C. sometimes Chelsea F.C. , England and Selangor team.He has joined many various sports events.

Musical skills
He's also a musician, too. He plays the guitar, and bass guitar. He owns a Ibanez 4-string guitar, and a cheap amp. He's going after for a RBX4 A2 4 string bass guitar. He's also in the midst of buying a new acoustic guitar.

With God
He's very serious with his relationship with God. He's a person, who trust in God, and often seek God for answers. He can be seen that he's serious with God through, the way he speaks of Him, and on how he behaves. He's even went for many activities, and camps to know more of Him. He also serve in many ministry, like music ministry, SF, transport, and many others. He even plans to work with SUFES after his course is done, which shows he's not interested with working big jobs and earning millionswhistle.

In friendship wise, he will go out with anyone. (as long as the person has to pay for the whole meal, and willing to pick him up from his housewhistle). Beans can be a dangerous person. He may look like an apek, but he's a mind reader. He knows which girl/guy which you like, which song REMINDS you of the person you like, and he knows who in love with who. So watch out for yourself. Most of the time, he has this "spell" to make people to answer his questions. He will not answer any questions directly to him, such as, "who he likes", "who he's after", or "is he straight?" (ehem)whistle. He often asks his friends to write letters to him, during the time he went Kedah. He still believes that writing letters are the most sincere and friendshipest thing to doclap.

But the problem with Beans is, he's pretty cheapskate. He rarely doh treats people for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and even supper toodoh. He's well known of his great technique cheeky of eating at McDonald's with only RM4. He buys something, let's say a burger, and he uses his "Kid's Club" card to redeem free fries. And the story where he uses the McD cup when he bought coke one day, an brought it back to refill back on the next day. Hahahahah, hebat!cheeky

His personality wise, he's a very cheerful person. Who laughs and makes people laughs. It's very seldom you'll see him angry, or in bad mood mad. He's outgoing, as in sports, activities and during normal times as well. He's a very motivated person at times, but at times, he does fall. He communicates with people easy (especially nerdsclap). He seldom complains or talk bad about anybody (not like me). He can be lazy at times, but he can stand up back, with some motivation from his friends. He do reads a lot of books, mainly about Christian life, and Science. He loves to see movies, during his class break time. He loves to look at the skies above, and ponder on God and His marvellous creation.

He's a teacher as well. He teaches many people. For example, he teaches me bass lesson today. He teaches the contestant of D.M.S.J. (a bible quiz), he teaches during SF (Student's Fellowship) on how to live a Christian Life. He teaches people to play football. He indeed has make a big impact on people's life, with he knowing it, or he not knowing it.

He also cares for people. For example myself. There were times when i just wont do somethings, and he comes there and gives me advices. Though at times, we often joke and disturb (well i the one disturb) each other, there were times he actually care of me, not only me, but other friends, too.

Overall, he's really an incredible person. No, I'm not saying this just because to suck up to him, or I'm getting any treats from him. But it's true, he's really a good personhands, and he will impact on your life. I'm sure once you know him, you will know he can be a real good friend. And to me, till this day, i don't regret knowing him even oncelove.

EDITTED, I just woke up from sleep, and now i can think more. There were some things which Beans actually "given" me, like new friends! Like the person in the cbox, and the person who gave comment on this post, nice meeting you guys :). And also not to mention, some special persons, you know who right, Beans? cheeky. He also gave me a present, well not an expensive one, but in order to get this present, you need to buy something else.



So that proofs he's not THAT cheapskate afterall(or is he still a cheapskate?whistle)


Me-lvin^_~

P.S. There are some rights and wrongs here, i think. Do correct me, if there's any mistake.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Interview

So after making sure i've locked my steering, i gave the car keys to my father, and walked away, As i was walking towards Damansara Specialist Hospital, i prayed. I'm taking this moment, as i have no one with me, and it a good way, to calm you down. While i was walking and praying, i walk past many cars park at both sides of me. One particular car, grabbed my attention, it's a BMW, with a windows sticker "God is the Leader, Serve Him". I smilled to myself. I've come to this flyover bridge, and walking up. As i look below me, i saw many cars going on the same way, makes me think of how in life, you dont have to follow or do what others are doing. So i came down on the other side of the road.

As i was walking pass, a familiar car which bears the plate number WQM 9**2 parked at the side of the road. I knew who's car was it, by just looking at the windscreen sticker. So i walked straight, looking at the big tall building right in front of my eye which the bottom is covered with shop lots. So i continue to walk, and came to the side of the building. Walking pass the VADS sign, i came to the entrance, walked straight to the security booth, and gave in my driving lisence in exchange for the Visitor Pass. I went straight for the lift, and press the 15 button. Was all alone in the lift, and i finally came 15th floor. I walked straight, and came to the automated door, walked to the receptionist, and told her "Selamat pagi, saya nak jumpa Miss Yong", and she replied "tolong duduk dulu". So i went and sat at this exclusive sofa, which i see in tv.

So i came there around 10:45 am, and my interview starts at 11am. So i just sat there, i saw one guy was doing the assessement paper which i did last week. One guy who has a ponytail sat next to me, he dress kinda smart with suit. Moments later he left. Another guy came and sat next to me. He dressed kinda cool, but im not in habit of knowing new people, so i kept silent, instead of introducing myself. When the guy walked to the counter, i saw his shoes, it was the same ones Beans have. Oh! how good would it be, if he's here, we could talk and laugh, at least i wont be bored now. I looked at the time, it was 11 am, and Miss Yong had not come yet, the guy who was doing the assessment questions, was using his handphone's calculator function to do his math questions.

I kept on waited, looking at the time, im seeing many people walking pass me. The only thing which managed to catch the decibel of my ear, are the sounds of the shoe steps makes. Different size, different race, different age and different clothings they wore. Some were wearing smart. Some were classy. Some were wearing clothings they shouldnt wear. Then i looked at the conference room beside me, there were more than 10 people in the room, and i got scared. I was thinking, was i suppose to go inside there? Am i late? I prayed again, just hoping that i didnt mess up my interview. Miss Yong came, she told me to wait. And she went away. I waited. Then another 15 to 20 minutes later, she came back. She called me and the person who did the assessment paper to follow her. We went to 20th floor. I thought, "what is going to happen?"

As we reached there, we came to this walkway. Miss Yong touched her keycard to the sensor, and keyed the folowing number 546**4*, and the door opened. So we went in there was this long walkway, with doors in side, yes just like the ones in Matrix. I got kinda scared, i managed to get a glimpse of these words "AIG", "Tabung Haji". Then we came at one of the door, she asked the guy to go in, he went it. Then she asked me to follow her to another door, and then i followed. Later she did the same keycard procedure thing again. Then came to this very very small room, which has 2 large doors, a cabinet, and the lower cabinet had milos, sugars, coffees and so on, on top of it. She asked me to sit down, and then she went in, i saw inside the room, there were peoples with computers in front of them. Then the door closed. I sat silently there. She came out, asked me to wait, and then she went out. I just sat there, looked around.

Then i heard someone doing pressing the door security keypad, and it was a woman. She entered in, and saw me, and got to the cabinet, and feeling milo into her cup. I felt kinda akward at that moment, because i felt like sitting at someone's house kitchen, and the housewife came in, and saw someone at her kitchen. Anyway she did her drink and left. One by one people coming in and looking at me, and go to the other side. I really felt ackward, as i dont know anyone there, and what im doing there. Then this malay guy came, and he said "hi", i replied back with a smile. I didnt uttered the word "hi", because something locked my mouth. Then he asked, "interview ke?", i said "ye" with a smile. Then he left. He looked really like the nerd ghost in Danny Phantom, hope to see him more. Then after waiting for 15 minutes in that small room, Miss Yong, called me and told me "Have confidence!", and she asked me to follow her. I followed her, and saw this guy seated at a table.

I greeted him with "Good afternoon sir", he replied back, and i sat in front of him. Miss Yong sat next to me. Then he introduced his name, but i cannot understand, as i didnt heard he mention his name. He's a big person, with this really hedious face, you ever see. So he asked me to explain about myself. I started to get nervous, from the questions shooting from his mouth, like the bullets from a handgun. Then he asked me to do a short skit, of how im going to convince a person to buy a product from me. He asked me to use my handphone. After replying to all his questions, i went out. Miss Yong told "You looked very nervous. But you did ok, but still nervous" in a friendly manner, while i replied "Yes, im very afraid, first time meeting him" which i didnt told her, that i was scared of his big head, with pair of small sharp eye. "His name is Taufik", said Miss Yong, so i asked in suprise "But i thought he's chinese?", she replied back "Yes he is, but he married with a malay person", and i replied "oohh".

Then as we heading to the end of the walkway, towards the entrance, "Miss Yong opened the door again, and holding them. She told "I cant wait to see you start working here, hope to see you soon" with a pat on my back. So i said "Thank you". She said she will call me by Tuesday. I went down through the elevator.

All i felt at this moment, i really was worn down. All the fears of interview, really took a lot of energy from me. All i want to do now is to go back home and sleep. Speaking of home, I'm reminded of Sophie Ellis Bextor's Take Me Home



Me-lvin^_~

P.S.Thank You Lord, and for those of you who prayed for me

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Get To Know Yourself Week

Last week was really a tiring week! I've gone for job interview, for the second time in my life.

I didn't only worn out physically, but mentally as well. It's so hard to think, when you worn out. Everything becomes stressful. Felt like running to Port Dickson, or even better Langkawi.

I had many talks with my friend. He was telling reasons why I'm not succeeding in many areas. For jobs for instance, I'm not going for one, not even studying. In love life, im not dating anyone, i NEVER had anyone. And many more things which he mentioned. When i thought to myself all those what he said, its kinda true actually. When i look back, on my first job interview, way back at 2006, i didn't got the job, just because my maths wasn't that good. As for my love life, i phailed terribly many times. It got me thinking, that I'm not a risky person. He told me, at least i should TRY to do something about it!

On Friday, i went for Student's Fellowship (SF), and heard an inspiring message from Beans. This messages isn't like any other. This message really touched the deepest end of my Axon Terminal! I really felt God wants me to hear what He wants me to say. Oh! the topic of that day is Worries. We did this test, which i got 6 for it, whilst others got about more than 10 marks. The higher the score the more optimistic they are, and the lower they got the more pessimistic they are. I was really surprise to see the results, not that they are false, but they are very true indeed. There are MANY MANY times when i was really pessimistic. I don't think how to do it, i think of how I'm going to end up doing it. Like the time, when i went for stream trothing. I was thinking how my shoe was going to tear, how the peeps will leave me behind, how I'm going to whack my leg and knee against those thick huge rocks, how my head is going to whack at the rocks, after i stepped on one of the slippery rocks and fell off.

It's HARD!

Back to Beans' message, he mention several things like "trusting God" and other important phrases. It really got me to think, on how many times, I'm not even using God's help, worse I'm not trusting Him. Its like, you got caught in the fire, and when the fireman comes to help you out, you ask him to help you, but you don't want to go to him. So in the end, how is he suppose to help you out. Sometimes being in this world, with many people, it makes you not to think of God. I prayed to God, many times about work, and finally i got one, Well not that i have it, but in the midst of interviews. About love life, I'm not with anyone in this moment, it can be good or bad, but hey i still have my friends around, and that's good!

Me-lvin^_~

P.S.Thanks Beans for the wonderful message