Sad day

Yesterday was really a sad day for me, really sad day... I initially wanted to blog yesterday, but my brother was occupying my computer the whole day and night, cause his computer got no graphic card, hohoho!!!

Anyway, im ok today, no more depress, chaism, sad, and heart broken... The story begins, when i went to Tailor's. I went there to see the person in charge and ask them questions regarding the course im taking, and loans, and many more... I hate the fact many people thinks im rich just cause i want to go to Tailor's, im not rich... Its just that Tailor's has it all, their infrastructure, the atmosphere and the facilities, making it a conducive place to study...

So i went there, and im like a BIG JAKUN, the place pack with people, imagine if i blow up the place with a c-4, how many lifes will fly away, no im not a bomber so dont arrest me... Anyway, the place fill with lights and doors, its like in a maze, so i finally found the "right" door to the School Of Tourism, and told them that im here to enquire more bout the course...

So this akak, asked me to take a seat, and fill in a form,so far i think ive filled a form in many colleges, i dont know whats the use of the form for... So the lady came in and talk bout the course and so on, then came in the big question, "Can i get loan for this course", she replied "yes you can", BUT...

BUT... the problem is ill be getting so little only, in 1 year, ill be getting rm8,000 per annum, or mayb lesser than that, check this out, in my 1st semester, ill have to pay bout, rm7, 500 and the 2nd semester will be rm5, 500.. Where im gonna get money to pay for the rest of semester from??? And this is PTPTN loan we're talking bout here..

After hearing that, sadly i went out from Tailor's and went to the car park, i was so sad till almost break out, its true... All this while i wanted to study in Tailor's just explode like that, i was soo sad that whole time, till i went back i drove 50-60km/h...

Its not only the sad news, 1 more of my close friend who was staying just behind my house, moved to his college hostel, at KL, that makes 2 out of 2 my BEST friends gone to KL, i feel very sad to hear that too, now who's gonna accompany me for lunch or dinner...

I just dont understand why its hard for me to enter into a college, even my friend who has NO SPM certificate CAN enter into college, whatabout they guys in my Form 5 class, all of them going to college, dispite many of them got really bad results in SPM...

I know something, ive told God, that if i cant enter into Tailor's then He has something else for me, so that's why i came out of my sad zone... Hoping He will show me a way to somewhere...

im 19 this year and i dont want to stay unoccupied without anything happening..

Me-lvin